I’m trying not to think about it.  I’m trying not to think about the fact that my baby is going for brain surgery next week.  I’m trying not to think about part of his head being shaved or the incision the surgeons are going to make in MY BABY’S HEAD.  I’m trying not to think about the chance that this procedure might not work and that he will have to have a shunt placed.  I’m trying not to think about the big artery they are going to be working beside.  I’m trying not to think about Gabe having a massive hemorrhage and becoming a vegetable or dying.  But that’s all I can think about.  On the surface I’m great.  I can talk about my confidence in the doctors and the high success rate of this procedure and the low risk of infection and blah…blah…blah, but deep down inside it’s killing me.  And I just want July 24 to be here and be over and the surgery to go great and us to get back to our normal life.


7 thoughts on “Truth

  1. Ken Reeves

    I know very close to how you feel! Your family will be with you. Hope that helps a little! Love that little guy soooo much! God is good!

    1. Barbara queen

      I know that you were full of fear but I also know what you are full of faith of God put it in his hand sweetheart he will not give you anything more than you can handle!!but now that I am saying prayers every day for your little man he is so adorable and so sweet can’t wait to meeting and I’m sending love and prayers to you your husband Gabe the whole family!!love and prayers always Steve Barbie and family!!😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

  2. Maria smith

    I wish I could give you the biggest bear hug ever. Gabe has touched so many people’s hearts including mine and I am a better person because of it. Will be praying for you sweet little family.

  3. maureen walther

    I would like to enquire about precious Gabe. I study with James Wilson and only saw this post now.
    Prayers to you and the family. Maureen Walther.


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